Feelin' rather emo at the moment. :( The feeling will pass I know. Just gotta wait it out.
I kinda wish I had more time and money to spare to catch up with a lot of friends that matter to me, used to matter to me a great deal and still do. But a lot of times, I either have to be busy doing something else, or I am too broke to go out. And as this cycle continues, the friendship just gradually dies.
This reminds me of my own revelation, that relationships with people that matter to you is also like an assignment with a deadline, just that the deadline comes like a thief.
We always take the people around us for granted, thinking that they are always there, thinking that there is no expiry date for the relationship. But it's not true. It really isn't.
How many times have I thought this way, only to realize I have already lost the person?
We always think that immediate assignments for school or jobs are way more important to complete than completing the invisible assignments in our individual relationships. So we put those invisible assignments aside and always spend all our time and energy in school or at work. But at the end of the day, when your time comes to an end, what or who do you want at your deathbed? Your career, or your loved ones?
Too many people forget that.
There are so many people I want to catch up with or spend more time with... Mum, Sam, Dad, Ah Ye, Jue Ling, Wee Kiat, Natasha, Nic, Dewi, it's a never ending list...
