Last year, I spent New Year's Eve with Nic, watching A Vacant Affair for the first time at Vivocity. Then I got to know Shen from A Vacant Affair and this year's New Year's Eve, I'll be spending it with him and his family!
It's so strange that when old relationships are broken, new relationships are formed.
This year, just like every other year, good things and bad things happened.
The good things - I got a boyfriend, the wonderful Tan Wei Shen. =)
- I reunited with my brother after 3 battling years. =)
- I lost my virginity. (tee hee)
- I have become more sure and more confident of myself, my decisions, and my thoughts. I don't associate with JWs any longer.
- I am slightly closer to my Dad. =)
- I interned at 987FM, my first full time working experience at a proper company!
- My long hair is now gone!!!!
The bad things- Wayne Thunder passed away.
- A few of my other acquaintances passed away. One committed suicide, another died suddenly on the road.
- My grandmother's health is not getting better, and will not be getting better. She had to amputate her leg recently.
- I disassociated with JWs. (It is both a good and bad thing for many reasons.)
From all these things, I have learnt that there's only such a thin line separating us from life and death. And it just makes me appreciate it so much more that I have not crossed the line into death yet. I am happy that I am still alive, and enjoying it as much as I can. We are so fragile that it is scary. But it is also this vulnerability that makes it so much more invigorating to be alive.
I am happy that so far at every New Year's Eve, I am alive to count down and watch the fireworks with people that I love.
Resolutions for 2008- To maintain a strong relationship with my brother.
- To maintain a strong and loving relationship with Shen.
- To keep my true friendships burning.
- To start supporting myself independently without taking anything from my Mum anymore.
- To keep myself going, and yet enjoy at the same time.
The difference from 2007 is that, I have learnt how important it is to keep the people u love close around you. Work and money is secondary. Because money cannot back u up in times of distress, but people can. Money is temporary, but true love is not. And also there is not much point pursuing high ambitions and material needs when at the end of the day, I am not happy.
People I want to thank for making 2007 great for me- Tan Wei Shen, my boyfriend, for being my stronghold and my amusement. Tee hee.
- Samuel Low, my brother, for growing up and being such a great wonderful brother with a great wonderful personality.
- My Mum, for being so open minded about my decisions. For making it easy for me to tell her certain things.
- My Dad, for accepting that both my brother and I are grown up, old enough to make our own decisions.
- Melodie and JY, annoying bitches to make the last year of school fun and simply for being my girlfriends.
- Arrogant Sim and JK, annoying class asses to make the last year of school fun.
- Adam, James, Bonk and Arif, for being great talented bandmates through and through. Though we haven't been gigging much. Sigh... Didn't make it for baybeats auditions too. =(
- Shen's family, for making me feel like part of the family and treating me so damn well.
- Jueling, for still being my best friend. 2008 is going to be our SEVENTH year of being best friends!!!
- Most important of all, my Grandma. For telling me that she loves me the most out of all the grandchildren. For cooking rice with steamed fish for me to eat.
