I'm generally rather tired of fair-weathered friends. Was looking thru photos of friends that were supposed to be close to me on facebook, and I just realized how out of the picture I am. I felt very left out and I dunno why I should be left out.
I'm tired of always being the one that people expect to listen to their problems, help them in whatever thingum that they know I have the network or skill to handle, lend them money, etc etc... These are also strangely the people who hardly ever ask me to hang out just on a personal basis, or include me when it comes to "the fun activities".
I don't wanna be just someone that gets called to play mahjong just cuz u people are lacking one leg and srsly need a filler. I'm not just a filler.
I need to close this chapter and move on with my life and concentrate on those friends I know who will not leave me to struggle with maintaining the friendship alone.
Hey guys, Amran and I are moving to Tampines!! End June.. :D I'm gonna be an Easterner for the first time and am pretty excited about it. However, I am not too excited about the long(er) distance we'll have to travel to work and school. Especially my school, which is far far away in Clementi. :'( I will have to wake up 3 hours before lesson time from now on. Sigh.. Which makes me worry about another thing, which is the late hours of my current part time job. How will I tahan?
Cross my fingers, hopefully I can get the job that Eloise recommended, which pays 10/hr and I can work for shorter hours over the weekend. Then perhaps half my problems will be resolved for now. However, I'm not so sure if her employer would want me because of my current hairstyle. I'm almost quite sure they prefer the typical long-hair pretty bimbo-ish chicks, the standard type, just like all other such jobs.
I've been feeling rather down and out for the past few days, because of too much stress over studies, juggling with work, and worrying about future housing. Now we have one problem down pat, since we're confirmed going to move to Tampines. :D But that also means more worries to come, such as settling everything, money... (money's always the root of all problems. srsly), furnishing the place.... ARgh...
Makes life a lot more fun I guess. I shall just worry about my Math Test on Monday, my COMS mid term on Tuesday, and Soci mid term on Thursday. Ahhh fuck!!
