Reflections on 2008 and Resolutions for 2009.
Major happenings of 20081. Graduation from Singapore Polytechnic with a Diploma. aka Separating ways from people I have interacted, befriended, and worked with for a good 3 years.
2. Being a Singtel Grid Girl. aka Earning Race Queen status siol! (Even though if you look me up and down in person, I emit no race queen aura at all.)
3. Medea, my third theatrical experience.
4. Being dumped for the first time. aka experiencing genuine heartbreak from a love lost for the first time.
5. Ah Ma went on to a better place. aka experiencing genuine heartbreak from loss of a close loved one. (for the first time yet again)
6. Got my first (and second) tattoo in order to ease the pain.
7. Being recruited into Kevin Mathews' Groovy People as keyboardist and backup vocalist.
8. Being one of Female's 50 Gorgeous People of 2008. (as superficial as it may be)
9. Meeting the most amazing man ever to step on this earth, Mr Achmad Amran Khamis. aka receiving a new love at the most unexpected time.
10. Dating a Malay man seriously, despite swearing never to date a Malay man just a few weeks before meeting him, for the first time.
As you can see, 2008 has been a huge roller coaster ride for me, with all the different huge occasions throughout the year. It's amazing because every year, this is the case for me. I am very thankful that my life is always so eventful, because it makes me look forward to the future, and I keep learning in the process.
From 2008, I have learnt how it is like to truly mourn for someone, to truly miss someone so much, and knowing that you'll never see him/her again. I have learnt that heartbreak is not as easy as some other couples make it seem to be. I have learnt how to be strong and to move on, because death and loss is part and parcel of life and we need to learn how to embrace it. I have learnt that with every loss, there is a new gain, even if it doesn't arrive immediately.
I have learnt that glitz and glamour are not really as fun and glamorous as they look. I have been exposed to public criticism for the first time and learnt how there is no need to please everyone, because nobody will ever be truly pleased. I have learnt how it feels like to be seen as just an object by fellow human beings who do not regard my existence as "Esther Low", but as an item without a soul. I have learnt how it really is like in showbiz, but I still want to do it because I love to entertain.
My Resolutions for 2009They are simple, but yet hard to achieve. I want to live through each moment positively. I want to learn not to be affected by the opinions of people that I don't care about. I want to do things my own way, otherwise why do I live this wretched life if I'm living it for others?
Goodbye 2008, hello 2009.
