My condolences to the family of the Singaporean lawyer who was tragically shot in the Mumbai attack.

At the same time, congratulations to the families of the Singaporeans who made it home safely.

I do feel sad that people from other nationalities have been killed too. But I do not deny that having a fellow Singaporean being shot dead as well saddens me more. It's like losing something that belongs.

After reading all these in the news, I realize that I actually do feel that I belong in Singapore. And I feel very thankful to our protective government from keeping us so safe from harm. Even though such protection in turn brings along cons such as no freedom of speech, and a certain lack of genuine identity. But at least we're alive and safe, not having to worry about our loved ones and live in fear.

I feel glad that my loved ones and I are able to live our lives without such anxious fear, without having to hide guns under our pillows whilst we sleep, or lock our doors at night.

I have to constantly remind myself that I cannot and will not be friends with everybody. There are reasons for me being at certain places in certain situations at certain times. There is no need for me to be friends with everyone caught in the same moment as I.

I'm meeting him for dinner tonight after 2 1/2 days of not meeting him at all! Okay quit rolling your eyes at me all of you! I'm that kind of love sick clingy girlfriend cannot ah??

Sigh I'm totally not looking forward to 1 Dec when he leaves for KL for 4 whole days. =(

Just read in the news today that the Malaysian Govt wants to ban Yoga because citizens should concentrate more on politics and money-issues and corruption.

What the hell????? Sounds just like living as a Jehovah's Witness (JW)! Just that this one is not about focusing on religion, but on the country's politics. (For those of you who don't know, I used to be a very devout Jehovah's Witness. If you don't know anything about Jehovah's Witnesses, feel free to wiki them up!)

The worst part is it is a governmental rule. So citizens have no choice but to live with it. It would be an offence if they broke the rule! And they will be punished by the government for it! At least as a practising JW in Singapore, I could choose to leave the organization and practise yoga as and when I please.

Another terrible thing the Malaysian govt has imposed upon her poor citizens is that it is disallowed for girls to be tomboyish!! Because they believe that girls should look like girls and boys should look like boys. I think this is a little too insane. If a girl likes to dress as a boy, so be it la! How can she be punished for her preferences and dress sense?? What if the girl just wants short hair because she doesn't like to comb her hair?? Like that also kena punished? it's just crazy man.

Truly sucks to be born in M'sia. Even though SG is full of many stupid rules as well, and SG is full of very ugly citizens, and SG lacks identity like nowhere else, at least I have the choice to bend around the stupid rules, not be an ugly citizen like the majority, and have my own identity as Esther Low Hui Xian.

No particular reason why I put this picture up. Guess I just wanna show the world how much I'm in love with him. =)

So I had a short conversation with HR and she was saying there might be a slight increment in my pay. But when I say slight, I really mean slight. So should I stay? Or should I go?

But then again times are really bad. Companies are retrenching everywhere. And it's not like my qualifications are that high, just a diploma in something weird, Music and Audio. Not like it's business management or biotech. It won't be easy to look for a new job. And for a dip holder in these bad times, I won't really be earning that much more, also around 1.5K.

Plus I'm already so comfortable working in Yellow Pages, since I already know the people there, and I know the ways, and how things work.

But then again I cannot stand how restricted I am, how there are so many gazillion things I can't do.

How how how??

Hi all,

I recently quit my job at Yellow Pages on a whim. But I don't regret it. Well it isn't exactly on a whim considering I have been thinking of quitting. But I simply quit without finding another job first. So right now I'm kinda dangling in mid-air, without the feeling of stability, and I kinda hate that feeling.

So I quit because I really couldn't stand the way things were in the company. We were not even allowed to surf the net during times when there seriously was nothing to do, we were not allowed to use our mobiles, everybody is the typical office lady/boy, what's worse, we have to be at work on the dot. Like really on the dot, not even 1 min late that kinda thing. But of course I still come late. Haha. But I do try.

It was the last straw when I found out I was paid a whole $600 lesser than my other colleagues when we were doing the exact same jobs and had the exact same duties. This was just because I was a contract worker and not a permanent worker. But this is just ridiculous! Why should I be getting less money just because I'm not staying in the company for long? I am still producing the same results as my colleague! Why should I be paid less for that?

What if I lied to the HR person who interviewed me that I would be working permanently, and then quit a few months later? I would have gotten an accumulated 2.4K more already!! Cheebye la. The thought of it just makes me wanna weep.

So now I'm job hunting, and there's this really cool creative company called Thinc
who's employing at the moment. I'm just crossing my fingers and hoping that the pay they're offering is good, and that they'll employ me. The office looks damn nice!! Like the type I'd totally enjoy working in!

Sometimes I wish I can be a professional mahjong player and earn money just by playing mahjong. =(

Meiji Chocolate Milk not nice. I don't like.

Hey friends,

I'm in this year's Female 50 Gorgeous People. If you are friend enough, click on the link below and vote for me okay?

Female 50 Gorgeous People


I'm number 31. Hur hur.

Okay toodles!

I got asked to do a soft porn photoshoot for an overseas magazine.

Lol.

But to people who care, yes I rejected it.

Hello whole wide world. My name is Esther. I am The Dragon Queen. Nice to meet you all.


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