Thursday, February 28, 20083:42 PM
Wednesday, February 27, 200812:19 PM
esther
12:16
we are brothers!
can ask arif out too!
りゅ
12:17
seriously he's scared of me sia
ROFL!!!!!
Old Age and Execution
12:23 AM
Death is a natural thing that befalls on all humans. And yet almost no one in their right mind looks forward to the day of their death. It's even worse when you know for sure that your death is just around the corner. I guess this applies to those that are awaiting execution for crimes they have committed, or are just simply in the wrong place at the wrong time (such as the unlucky residents in war-torn countries like Iraq and other Middle-Eastern Countries.)
When I visited my very old and ill Grandmother, a thought came to me. I thought, "isn't being old as good as waiting for your execution day?" And then I began to wonder, is it really such an awesome thing to live until an old age after all? I used to balk at how some of my friends say they wish to die a sudden and peaceful death at a youngish age like 40+. I felt that life was so full of goodness, how could any one of us bear to die so early??
So when this thought of living until old and waiting for death came to my mind, I then realized why they thought this way. Being really old, is just as good as being executed for the crime of having a longer life than your peers. And you'll just sit and wait for the day to come. You know it's coming, but you don't really know when, but you'll just sit and wait, because you have nowhere to run and nowhere to hide.
Maybe it's not such a bad thing to die suddenly and peacefully at 40+ afterall, when we are not expecting to die. There will be no feelings of regret, or fear, or happiness. We'll just go in a hopefully happy state, with our dreams for whatever was to come still intact in our brains.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAMIDI!!!!!!Gong xi fa cai everyone!! I gambled for the first time in my whole life today!! And lost a whopping total of $16!!!! At Shen's relative's place! Wheeeeeeeeee....
Shopping on Monday with my bestie and I CAN'T WAIT FOR VALENTINE'S DAY!!!!!!!
I take a lot of things too seriously sometimes. I need to chill. Yes.
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12:56 AM
Hi all. I'm now rotting in a LAN shop accompanying my boyfriend, for the 234098th time. But how much can I complain? This will just happen again and again and again and it won't matter how unhappy I am about it. I'm just an insignificant little flea nesting around town.
I've decided to try auditioning for the bachelor degree in Musical Theatre in Lasalle in April. This is really what I want to do and money will not be a barrier. And after talking to Wee Kiat, I realized that I'm not really in such a terrible financial situation. As compared to his fees, mine are really like amoeba.
The fees are like $21,000 a year. If I manage to get a grant of $4000, it will be reduced till $17,000. If I manage to get another bursary of lets say $5,000, it will be reduced till $12,000. Thereafter I'll just get bank loans for 3 years. Altogether I'll owe the bank about $36,000.
If I pay the bank back about $1,000 every month, I'll just keep paying my debt for 3 years! Only 3 years! So by the time I finish my debt, I'd be about 26, or 27 years old. Still very young! Yay! Just in time to start family. =D
Okay no point planning so much when I haven't even gone for the auditions. I might not even get in. From what the lecturer said, the standard is so damn high. And chances of Asians getting in are so much lower because the Caucasians are stronger technically. And there's like a ratio of 5:1 Caucasians to Asians enrolling for Musical Theatre from what I heard from the enrolment people.
This is worrying. But at least I know I'm competing against people who are worth competing against. I must work hard.
