i swear next time i go out with friends, i'm not going to bother calling many people. and if some people don't wanna go, fuck that. i'll just go out and enjoy myself with whoever.

I'm starting to feel the effects of eating too much mao shan wang durian yesterday. My fart and breath stinks like hell, my throat's getting sore and I'm coughing too much. My stomach hurts!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Bleaghsofgnea

I'm looking through the jobs available in Mediacorp. There are tonnes of them. And I fully realize how scared and afraid I am of facing the future.

Pitstop love!! More Pitstop anyone??

Things we do on the last day of school!

I can't believe that I'm actually out of school already. I'm now a bum!

I feel that being in school was the last thing I could cling on to for my innocence and childishness. But now that school's over, I can feel everything slipping away so fast. It's kinda scary. I don't think I'm adapting very well yet. But in time to come I will.

I miss all my classmates already...

HEATH LEDGER DIED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

omg omg omg...

Lucy The Star!


*unicef MoHaN.[.belief.]. says:
LUCY THE PIMPLE?

*unicef MoHaN.[.belief.]. says:
WTF?

*unicef MoHaN.[.belief.]. says:
hahaha

esther - i feel so sad that i didn't discover the beatles earlier says:
haha

esther - i feel so sad that i didn't discover the beatles earlier says:
why cannot??

esther - i feel so sad that i didn't discover the beatles earlier says:
she's been there for like

esther - i feel so sad that i didn't discover the beatles earlier says:
almost 3 years

esther - i feel so sad that i didn't discover the beatles earlier says:
and now shes finally gone

*unicef MoHaN.[.belief.]. says:
3years?

esther - i feel so sad that i didn't discover the beatles earlier says:
yah

*unicef MoHaN.[.belief.]. says:
HOLY COW!!!

esther - i feel so sad that i didn't discover the beatles earlier says:
HAHA!

esther - i feel so sad that i didn't discover the beatles earlier says:
can u imagine when i squeezed the stuff out?

esther - i feel so sad that i didn't discover the beatles earlier says:
everyday also got things come out lorh

esther - i feel so sad that i didn't discover the beatles earlier says:
for the past week or so

*unicef MoHaN.[.belief.]. says:
awesomely disgusting!!! thats all i can think of...

esther - i feel so sad that i didn't discover the beatles earlier says:
got beetle crawl out

esther - i feel so sad that i didn't discover the beatles earlier says:
got worm squirm out

esther - i feel so sad that i didn't discover the beatles earlier says:
even got helicopter come out!

*unicef MoHaN.[.belief.]. says:
wah wah...

*unicef MoHaN.[.belief.]. says:
got Train come out annot?

*unicef MoHaN.[.belief.]. says:
Frogs?...McChicken?..Sotong..?...Dinosaur?

*unicef MoHaN.[.belief.]. says:
im craving for Fried Sotong...ARGH ARGH ARGH ARGH ARGH!!!!.....FRIED SOTONG!!!!

Yesterday Baby Bear and I celebrated our 1 year anniversary! We went to a swanky restaurant for dinner. It was The Steakhouse at The Cannery. I tell you, the food there is so so so damn good. Save for the Lobster Bisque. The Lobster Bisque was so damn salty that I felt like I was drinking soya sauce. So if you decide to go there, I DO NOT recommend the Lobster Bisque.

But that aside, the rest of the food was just so good! The meat is so tender, so damn excellent. I had Ribeye Steak, which was juicy and perfectly tasty, with just the right amount of saltiness and all the meaty tastes together. He had Fillet Mignon which was extremely soft and tender as well. It's like the meat is so chewy, and yet has the ability to melt in your mouth with all the beef juices on your tongue. I never knew beef could taste this good.

I hate Portobello mushrooms actually. But, the Portobello I had there changed my mind. They were juicy and very fresh. And it was grilled perfectly with just the right amount of seasoning and soaking to take away the strong mushroom taste, and yet retain the richness of it.

The mashed potato tasted good, but it was good. Nothing fantastic cuz it's not hard to make mashed potatoes taste good.

If you feel like going to The Steakhouse after my review, here's the address. #01-14, Block 3B The Cannery. It is very near the taxi stand at The Cannery, so it's not so hard to go.

I got him the +44 CD that he wanted and a pair of Bermudas from Puma. It's like the only pair of pants that he wears that doesn't have any visible holes (save for pockets) are this single pair of Levi's jeans. -.-'''

The special boy cutely gave me a bouquet of white roses. I was so silly I thought they meant breaking up. But actually, white roses mean purity. Hur hur...

Here's the best part,
HE GOT ME ACROSS THE UNIVERSE OST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AHHHHH ADFKSGONSOIGHNWEOPNHE

I tell you, I love the songs so much!!! Awesome shit. Speaking of which, I feel so sad that I didn't discover The Beatles in my younger years. They are so awesome. Here's a video of a very awesome song. Stop the track playing below and watch this video, listen to the harmony, your hair will stand.



THANK YOU BABY BEAR!

I honestly can't stop gushing about Beauty World. Even though not everything was perfect, (Afterall it's produced by imperfect people and delivered by imperfect people as everyone on this earth is imperfect) the overall was just amazing.

The band was amazing. We all agreed that they were even better than the band for Phantom of the Opera who came early this year from London. Local productions are really progressing so well. Or rather, I have not known how good local productions can be. It's not always the case that our "ang moh" counterparts will always be better. That's bull. Beauty World is proof.

Even though a lot of the male's vocals were not perfect, their heartfelt acting and how they gave all their soul to the performance really could be felt. To me this is what really matters. Because like what Babes told me, a good performer is one who puts his/her whole soul to it, and is able to touch the audience and make them react. They did for me.

To me, what darkside means is, when you are nice to the person in front, but behind, you really dislike the person to the core, and bitch about him/her all day to other people. That's why I can clearly tell the world that I'm not a darkside person. Because when I dislike a person, I make it very clear, without reservations. I know i know. I'm very extreme. But that's just how I am.

But to those that I like, I'll treat them as well as I treat myself. I'll sacrifice so much for them, just like how I used to sacrifice for some people I used to call friends. Only when I feel like I'm being used, or just discarded uselessly, then I'll stop being stupid, and I'll stop sacrificing.

I'm not such a mean person all the time. Because before I actually start disliking someone, I tell the person first, what's wrong, blah blah blah... If he/she chooses to be in his/her own world and ignore it all, that's too bad.

I know I can be a better friend than that. But I'm not a stupid person also. I need the energy for other things. We're all kinda old already I guess. 20s not young anymore.

Today Jimmy treated us to watch Beauty World and I really thank Jimmy for it. Beauty World was just awesome. The singing by most of the cast was awesome, especially Ivy and Lulu. I felt so inspired watching the musical.

And I also realized how far I am from this kind of standard. How far more I have to go.

As I was telling James, if I could turn back time, and change one thing about my life, it would be my attitude. I would take away all my arrogance. I would put humility in all of me to learn more. I would put confidence in me too, so that I would be motivated to wanna know more.

In the past, I was full of arrogance and at the same time, self-esteem issues. It's time to be someone better.

Today is such a sucky day. School comp lag until like that, cannot print.... And due time is in 5 minutes time.
Lucy is mutating beyond human and alien recognition. Die she's gonna eat my face and then my whole head and then my chest and then my stomach and then my legs.

Also my website is like crapping in the wastes of the earth.

Today is sucky day. Sucky Day and it's not a HoliDay.

Okay byebye.

I don't think I got into that Channel U thing after today's interview. My Chinese was damn terrible during the interview. I was struggling like mad to find the right vocabulary. Plus I'm a bloody 55 kg, which is so not okay for a bloody Channel U stick thin person. I mean, I love my weight. But not when it hinders me to go somewhere.

I don't seem to be getting into anything these days. It's My Life, Baybeats, Channel U... All didn't get in...

Maybe I'm just fated to sell keychains for the rest of my damned life. - Quoted from myself.

Lucy, my permanent pimple, is going away. I guess we'll kinda miss her...

Eversince I cut my hair, less people have been saying "hello" to me or returning my greeting smile. Do I look that different after the hair cut?? Even Dewi couldn't recognize me when she first saw me! She thought I was some ah lian. Haha! And she's not the only one! Wheee this is a new me! i have always wanted to look drastically different without having to go through plastic surgery. =D

It's quite interesting what people think about my bold move of cutting my long hair this short. Lots of people asked me, "how come u suddenly wanna cut?" Like for example Jon Chan thought that something drastic happened to me which totally affected me emotionally, thus leading me to chopping off all my hair. I told him that it was because Shen french kissed his classmate for 5 seconds. (Which is true. They were playing truth or dare. And his classmate even said, "I'm glad it was you." after the kiss.)

But then again it's quite embarrassing smiling at people when they don't return ur smile. =(

Anyway, I'm going to make an embarrassing announcement. I'm going to attempt joining the Channel U contest "U Are The One"! It's embarrassing because this is so totally not me. But I'm going to take part in some Mediacorp contest before I become a working adult and can't try out such experiences like this anymore. I wanna try a little bit of everything before I die. Here's the website for the contest.

U Are The One

Poly life has been the most dark side event of my life. In case you're wondering what dark side is, it's a term invented by Bonk which denotes hypocrisy and lots of backstabbing to get somewhere. Nevertheless, I enjoyed it to the max and made a few good friends. Like Adam, James, Jia Yi, Shao Chong, etc... I'm sure we'll keep in touch. =)

There are only 2 weeks left in school.

It was Irene's birthday yesterday and we hung out at Haagen Daz at Siglap, after that moving on to some coffee shop near by. Irene was really nice and generous and treated all of us to expensive Haagen Daz deserts! I think I might be spelling Haagen Daz wrongly, but whatever.

We had fun playing with my yes no book asking a lot of darn stupid questions. And we stayed up till damn late just playing with that stupid yes no book which kept coming up with the answer, "it might be extraordinary!"

On a side note, I miss Baby Bear, but I'm not sure if he's missing me as much as I miss him. =(
And I've decided to reconsider my priorities in my friends list. There are some who have too much of themselves in their heads and only think of how right they themselves are. Sick of entertaining such people.

MC King died and people speculate that it is because he didn't have a healthy diet, eating too much chicken rice.

Nothing can describe my worry for Shen. Sigh...

Too many people are dying young for the same reasons. Really.

As this is my first post of 2008, I shall post up my first thoughts of 2008.

I think it is a damn sad thing when you are female, and you look like Paul Twohill. I've been seeing a couple of such people these days. So if somebody says that I look like Paul Twohill, I wouldn't receive it as a compliment with a gleeful smile on my face. Fortunately for me, I don't think I'll ever receive such a "compliment".

I feel annoyed with Christians (or any other religion, but most of the time, they're Christians) who think too highly of themselves and feel that they are holier than thou. Thus they somehow get the idea that they have the right to decide for others what's right and what's wrong. Even if they don't exactly say out loud what they are thinking.

I feel sad that my band did not even make it for the application for the audition for Baybeats. Is my band that inferior? I take pride in my vocals sometimes.

I feel fucking annoyed with the juniors in school who make lots of noise in school even though I was once like that. But I'm sure that when I was once a freshman, my seniors were annoyed with ME and my friends for making a lot of noise in school. So now it's perfectly okay that it's my turn to be annoyed.

I feel that I'm so far from my dreams. But my brother thinks that I lead an okay enough happening life. I guess I should be contented and glad that I'm not a boring twit.

I think people who smell bad, be it from their armpits, or from their mouths, are very inconsiderate people. Don't say that sometimes it's not their faults! It's their own responsibility to take care of their personal hygiene! Even if they are born with it or something. If they are really born with it, they should get deodorant or something! Instead of polluting our wonderful air.

Deliberate obesely obese people who weigh above 150 kg who dress obscenely are also inconsiderate beyond the earth's core. We don't want to see your celluloid and fats flowing out of your crazily tight jeans or short shorts/skirts!!! I feel sad that I (and many other people) are victims to such horrendous sights. For some reason, especially in MRT trains. Would it be the same case if we had choo-choo trains instead?

I hatred bands like Great Spy Experiment and Monofone who sound too much like another band. Like what my friends and I say, what's the point of having a band and making music when you're not making the music from your heart and soul, but following someone else's formula? Real music comes from the soul and is meant for the soul.

It's my last two weeks in school. Yikes.

It's almost time to be on my own. Yikes.

Happy New Year all.

Hello whole wide world. My name is Esther. I am The Dragon Queen. Nice to meet you all.


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