10 Reasons Why I Will Not Get In
Friday, November 30, 20073:43 PM
1) I looked like I was trying too hard.
2) I could not inteprete the song as Bang Wen Fu wished.
3) My movement caused me to look like a mad elephant on the rage.
4) There are 300 over other auditionees with likely more than 10 people who are more talented and vivacious than I am.
5) Only 10 people out of these 300 over auditionees will be selected.
6) My stories are not interesting enough.
7) I do not look like an interesting enough person.
8) Ricky Sim the dance choreographer is Wai Yee's husband. And I retardedly went to tell him that I worked with Wai Yee before. Therefore he is going to consult Wai Yee and discover that I am very hard to work with in terms of dance. Therefore, he is going to be against selecting me.
9) I appear too old.
10) God wants me to be an air stewardess.
Sigh
Wednesday, November 28, 200711:46 PM
I went for the auditions today. And it was quite unlike what I expected. quite unlike any audition I've gone for. It was like an improvising audition.
At first it was the singing part, where I sang A Whole New World by Aladdin. After that, Bang Wen Fu asked me to sing it again, intepreting it in my own way, like perhaps a young child-like girl exploring castles for the first time. I totally screwed up this part. Because I just kept singing it the same way over and over again. And Lim Yu Beng was saying, we have heard the same version before, now we want to hear it in another way. death.....
Oh no I don't feel like talking about this anymore I really seriously think I'm not going to make the cut. Which means I'll have to stick to the original plans of being an air stewardess after school.
IT'S MY LIFE AUDITIONS!!!
Monday, November 26, 200710:20 PM
It's just this wednesday for me!!!!!! I am so freaking excited! More excited than nervous I am. And that's a fabulous thing. For I remember my perpetual habit of breaking into cold sweat and having diarrhoea before things like this (auditions, gigs, any event where I have to present myself and be under the limelight for 15 excruciating minutes.)
Now this only serves as a drug for me.
After reading the blogs of the producers, I've decided that it may not be so scary after all. They all seem to be very nice friendly people. But then again, the fact that I'm competing against over 300 other teens who might have more talent or more interesting stories to tell is not a very comforting thought. I know that I have my own capabilities and a rather interesting story of my life to share. But then it's a tough fight when you don't even know the standards of other people.
For those who don't know, I'm auditioning for a musical called It's My Life. It will be directed by Lim Yu Beng, music written by Bang Wen Fu, and produced by Tan Kheng Hua. The story is actually about ourselves and teenagers. I really really want this so bad. The thought of not being able to get the gig makes me feel so damn sad. Really. I don't really wanna be an air stewardess after I leave school. I really really really want this gig so so so so much.....!!!!!!!
We'll just see how things go for me.
Thank You
Thursday, November 22, 200712:29 PM
Thank you Baby Bear for making all my stomachaches go away by making me happy and keeping me company!
Ikea Trip
Monday, November 19, 200711:32 PM
Today Baby Bear and I went to Ikea for a shopping spree! Reason is this. He just shifted house and has a new room or nice and renovated for us! And so we decided to buy stuff to make the room nicer.
For today we bought a pretty little lamp, pot pourri and a bowl to put the pot pourri in, a photo frame to put a picture of us in it, a classic black alarm clock, strings of starry lights to hang on his ceiling, a black and neat waste paper basket to go with the theme of his room (which is black/white), and a black cardboard box with quirky shapes on it to put his magazines in.
We've basically put everything up except the starry lights and the box cuz they are kinda hard to do at the moment. He's tired and my stomach hurts. Shen's mum said that I've gotten food poisoning after I told her my symptoms. Lack of appetite for the past few days, diarrhoea every 15 minutes, urge to puke, after consuming charcoal pills shit solidified but was green for 3 days.
Grrr..not tired, but gotta sleep, cuz stomach really hurts too much for me to do anything more.
Infected
Friday, November 16, 200710:28 PM
I'm feeling very terrible right now. I thought I would get better last Wed/Thurs, but I got worst instead. Maybe a zombie bug bit me in the middle of the night and is now turning me into a zombie. I'm now going through the process of turning into a zombie. Soon my skin will start turning more pasty in colour and I will look dramatically sick. That's cuz my flesh is decomposing. Then soon my brain will not belong to me anymore and I'll start chomping on humans.
Maybe Some Other Time
Thursday, November 15, 200710:44 AM
I cried when I read my brother's post on livejournal. Initially I wanted to blog about my best friend's birthday celebration today. But I guess I'll do it another day soon when I'm happier so I won't have to fake happiness. I'm just momentarily tired of faking happiness.
Nightmares
Wednesday, November 14, 200712:29 PM
I dreamt last week, that my grandma passed away. It was a very emotional dream, and I have never felt this way in a dream before. I remember that I cried a great deal in the dream, and I woke up feeling very stressed.
Regrettably
Tuesday, November 13, 200711:13 AM
I've fallen sick. Caught a cold. I discovered it last night while watching Gameplan with my boy. I started coughing and sneezing non stop. It got so bad that we ran out of tissue and I had to start wiping my snot on his t-shirt. Poor boy... When we came out into the bright lights of Cineleisure, we realized how gross his t-shirt looked with all the filmy mucus on the spots I wiped my nose on. Poor long suffering boyfriend. BUT THIS IS WHAT BOYFRIENDS ARE MADE FOR ANYWAY!!! =D =D =D
Lots of people have fallen sick these days. Shen was sick first. Then Arif got sick, then Mel got sick too. I think that my body's immune system actually grew weak fighting off Shen's evil viruses. Therefore when I came into close contact with Arif and Mel, my immune system was no longer strong enough to fight their evil viruses off. That's why, I fell sick!
I also think that I may have fallen sick because of Penang's most famous HIM HEANG TAU SAR PIA!! Or Tambun Biscuit. Desmond was such a sweetie! He gave me a box of them cuz his auntie just visited from Penang. I didn't even ask him. I LOVE TAU SAR PIA! Tambun Biscuit is heaty and addictive and thus I got sick being addicted to such heaty goodness. Tambun biscuit is love and temptation and temptation is a curse.
TAMBUN BISCUIT IS A CURSE!
Prediction of Our Future Shapes
Sunday, November 11, 200711:24 AM
Humans are going to become skinnier in the future years! Perhaps this may only apply to a few nationalities and races, such as Singaporeans. I shall proceed to explain why.
This morning I went to buy brunch for my mother and I. I went to our favourite vegetarian stall to buy the vegetarian bee hoon. To my horror, the quantity of the bee hoon and all the other ingredients have decreased by a considerable bit. Also, they have excluded some yummy things we like to eat in the bee hoon, like the crispy crispy flour thingy. In fact if we want that, we'll have to pay another 50 cents for each packet! I asked the auntie why this is so. She said, "dong xi qi jia le ma." (which means, the cost of everything has increase.)
And the thing is, it's the same almost everywhere. Not just our vegetarian stall! It's also the same with my favourite Fishball noodles stall. ='( Last time one bowl of Fishball kway teow was just $2. And whenever I add fishball, the auntie will add until a lot. Not one bowl has become $2.50, and when I ask for more fishballs, the auntie will only add a few, and it becomes $3. Sadness befalls.
So therefore, what I can deduce from this is that in future, either all food increases in price, or the stall holders give u a much lesser quantity for a much smaller portion, and so Singaporean food portions will become like French food portions! And then we will become slim like the French! =D So actually it's not such a bad thing, because the stall holders will now help us to control our diets too! By helping us not to eat too much!
Baby Bear should be happy about this because he doesn't only have me to help him watch his diet anymore! The food stall holders all over Singapore can help him too! And I will be able to shed my own kgs too so that I can match with him after he loses 5 million pounds training at California Fitness!
After this whole episode, more people will be able to fit onto MRT trains and buses. So therefore, crowds at MRT stations and bus interchanges will decrease at a much faster rate since all the vehicles can contain more people now. So maybe because of less human congestion for such public transportation, more people will abandon taxis and cars, and take public transport! And then in turn, air pollution will be reduced due to less traffic on the roads! THE WORLD WILL BE A MUCH BETTER PLACE!!! BECAUSE THE AUNTIE AT THE VEGETARIAN STALL AND FISHBALL STALL AND MANY OTHER STALLS ARE NOW GIVING OUT SMALLER FOOD PORTIONS!!
Okay bye.
After 4 Whole Years
Saturday, November 10, 200711:02 PM
I've deleted my old blog. It was a rash and impulsive thing to do after a huge fight with my boyfriend. But I have always been so rash and impulsive all my life. Like Amelie from Amelie, and Clementine from Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind. I feel like I can relate to these characters so well. They are very weird characters and I don't feel ashamed that people think that I'm weird too.
I feel happy that now I'm able to add titles! =D But I also feel sad that all my past entries are gone. I used to like reading through those journal entries I posted when I was 15, and think back on all those times. And realize how much I have changed. But that's alright. I can add titles now!! =D
I love my baby bear.
